Toilet Paper Brides

New Year rolls in. 

Brings gifts –

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Soaring postage costs.  Not many Christmas cards last year.

 – three hundred and sixty five days untrodden, all gift-wrapped.

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Reams of resolutions.  High hopes in spite of/ because of …

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What next? 

Then comes …

 Evening news.  Burning building collapses.

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Downtown Tehran. Authorities ignored warnings about structural weakness
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Flaming highrise falls down flat

 

 

 

 

 

Shades of 9/11 …

Pick up phone to text Neighbour–

Me:  (tap, tappity-tap) Hope your family wasn’t near the building that came down in Tehran.

Neighbour (texts):  Thank God, none of my family members was in that area.  I knew this building very well since my father used to have an office there when I was little.  My mother was working, so he would take me to his office after school.  It’s all so sad.

Me: (Tap, tap): Thank God.  Sad, yes.

Avalanche in Italy buries ski resort.  More earthquakes. Tsunami warning. Shooting in Texas mall.

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 Never ends.  So what’s changed?

 Nothing, it seems, but …

  • Must keep looking upward, focus outward, embrace light. 
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Puppy embracing light
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Dawn over neighbours’ homes
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Moonrise above next door’s roof
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Full moon at midnight through bathroom skylight
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Crescent moon and single star above neighbour’s house
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… little star

         

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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– Must speak LIFE.

Proverbs 18: 21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue …

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Daughters’ Christmas present hangs by writing desk.  Speaks loud and clear to Heart.  Heart leaps for joy –

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Merry Christmas Mom (that’s me!)             
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Husband’s wife.  Daughters’ mom.  ME.

– Mustimg_20170116_183143 believe.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yes! Just getting started …

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Inspired by Puppy’s determination to keep dreaming, believing –

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“Hey, Grams, wanna share? “
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“… it’s gonna fall!”

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When all else fails …

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Yahoo!  Dishwasher time …

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Box of Dreams sits by bedroom door.  Weighs a ton.

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Up to the brim.  Almost twenty years of journals
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Yes, mine.

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Now making entries in journal number thirty six.

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From the wildest dreams of …

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Been scribbling my heart out for years.

A dream catalyses the evolution of Something out of Nothing, sometimes through Unlikely Source.

Like toilet paper wedding gowns …

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Radiant Toilet Paper Brides at Rachel’s bridal shower
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You’ll never know till you try
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Just imagine!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Plan for the rest of 2017:

(1) Quit skulking  in life’s undergrowth   –

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Puppy’s arch-enemy, lying in wait

…  strive for the stars.    

(2) Look at the bigger picture –     

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Sky’s the limit
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Life in miniature.  Husband peeping into giant doll house

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(3)  Build more bridges (not fences) –

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Shut out of paradise.  All fenced out

(4) Think outside the box –

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You betcha!
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Too confined
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Don’t go there! (Puppy and friend)
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Oh, come on out!
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No way!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(5) Break out of the iron bars –

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“Someone lemme out!” (Puppy out of harm’s way during renovations)
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“Come on out. ” (Puppy’s sister, Jesse)
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“Can’t you see the door’s open, silly?”
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Sometimes the keys are in plain sight

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So what keeps holding you back?

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Unlocking door. (Husband after summer concert in the park)

         

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Endless!

   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(6) Wear the weight of passing years like a  million dollar diamond tiara –

 With grace and elegance …

 (6) Resurrect dead dreams –        

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Kanatte Cemetary, Colombo, Sri Lanka
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Dying African violet.  Nursed it back to life.
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                                                                               LEAVE OUT.  DON’T PUT  IN GARAGE     (Sign on neighbour’s lawn)

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(7) Pray more –
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Grace before Christmas dinner

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Puppy’s favourite pausing spot

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                                                                                             The dream finally came true ….                                                                                                                 

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I still write letters

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Who writes letters anymore? (Street corner, Colpetty, Sri Lanka)
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Never believe that

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Philippians 3: 13 But one thing I do, forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead …

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Ahoy there!  All aboard …

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Wellawatte railway station, Colombo, Sri Lanka

Oh baby …

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Puppy and Rithika

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Never too early to start

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Me?  Never!

 

     

 

 

 

 

 

Some day soon.

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Some day …

Thankful for dreams.  A reason to leap out of bed each morning.

Until next time,

sincerely

            

 

 

                                     

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Meet Maria

 House is undergoing renovations. 

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Puppy, a nervous wreck. (“Help! Where’s my spot?”)
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Sleep tight, Claire! Overnight guest beds down with paint pots by front door

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Clouds of dust, pails of paint –

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Inside the coat closet

I gasp, run for IPad.  Just remembered something …

Tap. Click.  Got it!

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Take a look at this …

… something Daughter said eight years ago.

Flashback to …

Several dark months when light in home is dimmed while Mother (me) undergoes treatment for late-detected breast cancer. Pretty much confined to bed.  A simple journey to the bathroom and back is long, exhausting.  Endless pilgrimages to hospital and clinics.  Can’t do much else besides.   Completely sapped of strength.

One day Daughter says –

“I guess God allows the pit to get so deep, so we can see how high his ladder can go …”

Bingo!

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How high can it go?
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Not high enough.  

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Grammatically incorrect t-shirt!

Words to heal or kill- power of tongue to build up or destroy …

 

 

Perspective alters instantly.  Pit is deep, very deep – yes – but ladder goes high, so high.  Begin to count blessings.  Endless list.  

People who love and care –  

  • Husband, Daughters, Family, Friends, Church (Kitchen lies idle. Meals come in unsolicited for seven months straight.
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Puppy, constant companion.  If eyes could heal ..
  • Maureen, who accompanies me to chemo sessions, sees me safely into house, remains awhile in driveway crying for me before driving away. 
  • Brother-In-Law, Jonathan, who spends 4 hours a day for a week, driving me to radiation through freezing rain and snow storms, so exhausted husband can have a break..
  • Puppy’s unwavering eyes on me. Doesn’t move from my bedside. (Never wanted a dog.  Can’t do without him now)   
  • Top notch medical care. Stellar surgeon and oncologist.
  • Knowing that everything happens for a reason.
  • Prayer.  Someone IS listening.

Etc. Etc. Etc.

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Husband wakes up each morning and says, “Good morning gorgeous!”

I cry the first time I hear him.  I’m grey,   bloated,  bald as an egg.  

He isn’t joking.

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He’s my man

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Meet Maria –

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I see Maria one morning at the chemo ward.   A pretty woman.  She begins to cry when the needle is inserted into her vein.  My heart aches.  In two weeks she’ll be as bald and as I am, with black nails and all the awful trimmings.  I don’t want her to suffer as I have. 

I place a hand on Maria’s and murmur, “You’ll be all right.”

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“You wake up each morning and ask for strength for the day.  At night say ‘thank you’ for the grace that took you through. Live one day at a time.  Don’t think about tomorrow.  It’s too frightening.”

We meet every three weeks at the hospital, talk on the phone.  Dark moments.  Shared strength.

Maria makes it.  So do I.  Sisters. There’s something about shared suffering.  Eight cancer-free years for us both this year.  Oncologist tells me I’m one of her success stories.

How high the ladder goes …

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Celebration time.  Hyrrah for Maria!         

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 Detest the wig.  Makes me itch, gets into eyes –

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Unloved.  Hardly used the wig.

Husband wears it to sixties hippy-themed costume birthday party some weeks back!

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Happy Hippy Husband.  Despised wig finally comes in useful!

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That’s my man!

 

 

 

 

Won’t ever forget that moment when head feels scratchy. Realize hair’s growing back.

What a feeling …

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Gorgeous full moon last week.  

Playing hide-and-seek over neighbour’s roof …

Roses still blooming in Garden –

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                                                                                              Standing tall.  Me in a puddle of sunshine.

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Hope is a precious thing.  Joy is priceless.  

Until next time,

sincerely

PS: The pictures in this post are all clicks from my IPad and phone.  Please share your thoughts and leave a comment.  Thank you for dropping in. 

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A dog’s life. Puppy sleeps in. 

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Synchro … what??

 

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“It’s weird, Rosie. I walked into Winners and the shelves came alive.  As if the display had been contrived just for me. The words were flying out from everywhere. Odd thing is, I hadn’t planned to go there. Just felt an overwhelming urge as I drove by, so I popped in.”

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There was more.


I met Rosalyn two years ago, on Fanstory,  a website for writers.   Turned out she lived round the corner, not in Alaska, Australia or … Timbuctoo!

We meet at Tim Hortons

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 to talk about writing and … our dreams. The more we talk, the less unattainable they seem.

Rosalyn scrolls through the pictures on my phone. I chatter on –

“The same thing happened when I visited my cousin in Ohio over the Thanksgiving weekend. We went on an unplanned shopping trip and – oh, my goodness! – the place was alive with … dreams, Rosie.  Look!”

More pictures –

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“It’s called universal synchronicity,” Rosalyn volunteered.

“Synchro … what?”

“That’s what my son says it is. It means the universe is trying to tell you something.”

“The universe? You mean God?”

“Whatever you like to call it. Something’s trying to communicate with you.”

“To encourage me to keep dreaming?”

“I guess so.  Yes!”

“A man almost collided into my shopping cart last week. My eyes popped out of my head when the lettering on his T-shirt began to screech!”

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Rosalyn grins. “You got a picture?”

“I chased him down the Walmart parking lot and asked it I could. Told him the words were significant. Said I wasn’t a crazy woman!”

She chuckles. “You dared?”

“He obliged.  I had to record the moment. This stuff has been happening a lot lately.”

I flash more pictures –

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My words trip over one another. “I’ve caught more than a thousand moments  on my phone, Rosie.  Look at what I saw last Saturday, on a shelf at Winners.  It had no business there – ladies’ section, face up – staring at me … ”

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“It kind of grew and screamed … honest!  I was rushing past, not really looking.”  I barely pause for breath.  “I found a belated Christmas present in my mailbox some days back. From a friend I haven’t met in ages. I almost jumped out of my skin when I opened the package and  saw the words on the picture frame.”

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A dream come true!

Rosalyn, bless her, is never sceptical. 

“I had to see someone on Saturday. When I drove into the parking lot of her building, something grew out of the corner of my eye. It filled my line of vision.

Rosalyn looks amused. “You took a picture, of course.”

“Of course!”

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“It was parked at the far end. There was absolutely no reason for me to notice it.”

“And then I had this compelling to drop in at Indigo Books.  I hadn’t been there  in ages.  This  paper weight jumped up the moment I walked in –

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The words seemed to be on every item that caught my eye. Suddenly, I heard a child’s voice mumbling, ‘Dream bigger, darling’.  I got goose bumps.  The kid was reading out loud.  He held a pencil case in his hands, the words were etched on it.  It felt pleasant, you know, and kind of weird!”

It’s snowing outside. The medium white hot chocolate is warm in my hands. I take a deep breath and sigh. “I’m excited, Rosie!”

“Me too,” Rosalyn replies.  “This synchronicity thing has been happening to me too!”


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sincerely


This post is dedicated to my friends – Rosalyn (who’s such a wonderful listener), Alice (who delighted me with the unexpected gift) and Karen (who dropped it off in my mailbox).  With my love and thanks.


 

One Thousand Things

I went moon-chasing last week.  I made a dash around the neighbourhood, trying to capture the fascination of a

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through my camera.  She sailed into the

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, an ice-queen in a shroud of wispy cloud-cobwebs.  I inhaled my soul-food for the day.  


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 .”  My friend Bev presses a book into my hands, some months ago, in the summer… 

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 by

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http://www.aholyexperience.com   http://www.facebook.com/onethousandgifts

I

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 I am  captivated.  So commences a dazzling new journey.  A journey to finding thankfulness in all things.  Finding

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in the mundane, the difficult, the tragic.  Being thankful no matter what.  Intentional thankfulness.

My smartphone and

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never stray from my side.  I have to catch the joy-moments coming out of nowhere in a series of joy-gifts I never saw as gifts before.   Like these …

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Africa-shaped puddle
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Supermarket shadow
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Rosy dawn skies
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Rainbows on floor tiles
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  • Sun-splash on gum day
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  • Puppy in wee-hour glow
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light 'n' shadow on kitchen wall
Light ‘n’ shadow on kitchen wall
Microwave reflection
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Tawny tree upside down
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The list goes on.  And on.  Pausing to discover the fragrance welling out of intentional thankfulness.  My lungs filled with joy. 

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Ann Voskamp (just Ann with no e she calls herself) – The Farmer’s wife,  mother of six – writes (paraphrased) –

Thankfulness releases joy, which releases miracles …

It feels as if

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have come to reside in my heart. 

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I began to change.  This is the

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Thankful for the ugly, the lovely. The precious, the un-pretty.  The simple, the complex,  the

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And all the in between, mundane stuff.  Intentional thankfulness that generates sublime joy.  Surely this is

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, the daily

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 I went to the bookstore to buy a copy of One Thousand Gifts for my aunt. 

 “Funny,” the girl behind the counter said. “Lately, there’s been a rush of people coming for the book.  There aren’t too many left.”

All IMG_20151029_175957I replied, “That’s probably everyone I know coming to get one.  I haven’t been able to stop talking about it.”

 “I’ve heard it’s good,” she replied.

Bless you, my dear.  It is!


 If my family think I’m bananas, they

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, you know.  So I try to

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because I  choose to

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that

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and

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 .  I

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 .  It’s

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!   I sigh over pretty puddles and go

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And that’s why I went moon-chasing last week.

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Is this 

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?  Quite possible!  IMG_20151102_220835

IMG_20151101_231436   Something happened.  It’s unleashed the

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They don’t seem all that far-fetched anymore.   I understand that

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Me?  (Smiling!)

                             


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, Reader.  May you find gifts in the ordinary things.

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Here’s to

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sincerely

Good Morning Gorgeous!

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Selina.  This is my blog.

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.  I am 

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committed to being

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 and

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to my

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 and two

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though, the

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  makes me  feel sort of like

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  I mean?  (Of course, you do!)  I’d love to take an occasional

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to be

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 Words –

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 in my head the moment I try to 

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 to

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 or think of 

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 to indulge in whatever.

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…    

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, I do.  And yet,                                                                        _20150601_152024

 you know, still the

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, or

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to the poetry of the universe.

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!   Once in a

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in the midst of

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 of crazy

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 (when I’m absolutely certain

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),

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If these are the best

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, where am I headed? The daunting questions crowd in till there’s

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, and I have to take a deep breath, chide myself  and

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 couple of weeks.   

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– I’m going to tell you one of mine, so

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 to a  minute or two,

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      …   xx   …   xx   …

Here goes – an entry from the

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 a wishful thinker,

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      …   xx   …   xx   … 

 Picture it.  It’s

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This writer (that’s me!) is pushing a cart through supermarket aisles. She’s reviewing her grocery list –

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… ”  “

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  tonight,” she (me again!) mumbles. “Get what you need. Just

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!”

Then, suddenly …

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The words

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Me?

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blushing …

I almost heard

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before I saw the letters stitched into a satin cushion .  It was like someone waved a

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and something inside went

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  and  sense of

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 washed over me.  I leaned

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to have a better look.  My day went

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from average to

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 , to

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.  Such a  

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in my mouth.  (

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For a nano-second I was

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, totally

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 “I

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 .”  I paused.   “

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,” I said to myself.

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 , this is sort of the science behind subliminal messaging, I guess   It certainly had

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on me.  I fell for it,

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_20150624_190736

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IMG_20150902_113014 embroidered on fabric – so

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 and  

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I

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the

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.  I can still

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. Absolutely

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…  Who would have thought?

   My surroundings suddenly came alive with words. They were

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to me.

IMG_20150814_173544 what I mean.

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(below) and my

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 to each item on it.


 

(1) IMG_20150903_180928 What cheek!

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(2)  IMG_20150903_180741 … I’m no

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, but thanks!

(3)_20150621_121219

IMG_20150815_005857– sure,

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(4) _20150621_121234

.. (giggles) That’s quite enough –_20150701_153223

(5)  IMG_20150813_174658 …  Me? No!  I don’t think so.

(6) IMG_20150814_173214– Okay, you can

_20150610_175445simpered for this one!


 

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understood the power of words, as I did in these few

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.  Power to affirm or destroy.  

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 ,” I said to myself.  “

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 .   This is how you

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IMG_20150613_120522142  in the middle of an ordinary day.

 I think I entered 

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 .   ” I want to

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in a perpetual place of positive words,” I told myself. 

My heart beamed.  My spirits soared.

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, I think.

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.                                                                    

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 for you today, Reader.

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 with beautiful words.  May good words  be your

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. May they  flow all over you, heal and make you come alive.

The

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but could include giddy joy , which is

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Just

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Here are

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 –

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_20150710_103525 yourself.  And

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I believe this is

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.  Oh,

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 , I feel it in my bones !  Three hearty

 

! Three hea_20150710_141916IMG_20150815_010411


 

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now.

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. Here’s to

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P.S. 

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                                                                      _20150612_140218

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sincerely          


 

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(All the pictures in this post are digital moments captured on the camera phone.)

The Famous Grouse

 

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–  me again!  It’s been a while …

 Something’s changed.  I can’t put a finger on it.  Words like these –

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 bring on a  half-guilty sigh.   I’ve wondered why.

 There was once a time when

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would have been a sublime goal and aspiration. Not anymore.

 Lately, I find myself planning a

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 meal and

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   I’ve grown weary of keeping the home_20150620_120107

, often reminding myself that

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and it can wait.  (Unless

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I can never cease to

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at all you

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who opt to

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to the exclusion of all else.  My family and home have been

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of my life, and  I’ve cherished my role as

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_20150716_201952, sort of

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, you know .   I began to wonder if I needed to 

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of the icing on the cake of my life – something that would make me come alive.

 I  voiced  my thoughts one evening at the dinner table.

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 ,” I announced.

 Parents often assume their

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and disinterested  in general.  To my amazement and delight, mine were listening..

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,” I went on. “I love words .  I

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 with them all over again when I wake up each morning. If I could

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with my words, and everyday for the rest of my life, then I think I’d be fulfilling my purpose. 

“So do it!” they said.

I was taken aback.  “Do what?” 

“If you have a 

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, Mom,  it won’t just dissolve and

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 , right? 

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. It’s

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So why not start a blog?” they said.

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,” I squeaked.

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 and

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with the internet.”

 

_20150710_164512 with you,” they said.   “We’ll help you find  your feet.  We’ll sort of be your

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We’ll teach you how to navigate the social media stuff … and stuff.

But you’ll have to_20150612_105139

–  the bulk of it, anyway, because

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So why not

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?”

“But

_20150716_202656 ,” I mumbled.

“Oh,

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, Mom?  Okay, how badly do you want to

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?

“Really badly …”

So

 

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for it, Mom!  But don’t

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just yet, okay?  (Muffled

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– the cheeky things!)

“What do I blog about?” I ventured.

“You always have

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. Mom.  Write about your

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, about

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or just

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,” they said.  “Use the pictures you keep taking.  And whatever you do, Mom, don’t

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and

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.”  I became

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Suddenly, I was

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“Okay,” I said.  “I

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there’s aIMG_20150724_205245373_HDR

for everything, and

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From now on I’m going in

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– I’ll

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and I

 

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And thus began a journey.

Dear reader,

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of my list  below –

   –  (1)  Be IMG_20150801_185557

             because

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  • (2)  _20150709_221852

 

  • (3) IMG_20150814_230618

     –  (4) 

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(four times over, and then some more)

  –  (5)  _20150712_162605

 – (6) IMG_20150716_122030891_HDR

  • (7) 

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                                                                             …   xx   …   xx   …

 

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 in the dream department.

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…   xx   …   xx   …

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…   xx    …   xx   …

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Brake For Butterflies!

Oh

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 there!

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                                                                                                                     !           

It’s me again … 

I’m in the parking lot with a cartful of groceries when I see this bumper sticker  –

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I whip out my phone and click.  (How could I not? 🙂 )

Okay –

_20150620_120905

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                                                                                                           wondering where this is going, right?

 I jotted down some thoughts to share.   

Yes! 

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I resort to  paper and pen.  (If you’re under thirty, don’t judge those of us who do –

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                                                                                                            )

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… got distracted!  Sorry, where was I? Oh, butterflies …

 

                                        I

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to

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at myself.  I asked – 

Is it possible to

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   and still

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 from life’s knocks?

How can you

_20150623_101616 , no matter what the circumstances?

 How do you measure

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anyway? 

I know I’ll never be the

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_20150620_115759 , or a 

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.  Who cares if I’m not

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 and

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?  I don’t yearn to

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 at the best restaurants, nor do I  seek

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all the time. 

This I know, however.  Each new day is a 

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  – not just the

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 –  but every moment of my life,

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.  Of course,

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bonus.

How wonderful not to always have to

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.  I’m happy as I am, though. 

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or not, I don’t

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than I have.  I  know I’ll never be

_20150617_154611 , but I can be a

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.  I can make

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to be

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 – because this is how I feel inside.

 So what sort of 

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 brake for butterflies?

I’d like to think a butterfly-braker is someone who could live as if every single day is a

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, who understands that simple things are of

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 .  If you are

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 –  and we all do from time to time,  because often

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                                                                                                                   –

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 the precious things.  

Love, faith, family, friends

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 and if these things are yours,

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 Are some words hard to say?

  • I’m sorry. 
  • I need you
  • I miss you
  • I love you 

Say them as often as the need arises.  And then some more.

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 can turn an entire situation around.

 Do you really believe that success can be measured by the

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 piled up in a bank account?

How could you ever know

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 the glittering façade of a life that looks 

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              on the outside?

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So

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_20150716_201526_20150716_202419

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  .  Be

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to be turned

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by unexpected serendipity.

Tell yourself each morning that

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It’s not all about possessing stacks and

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of stuff, you know.

Take a minute to

_20150618_161740 and breathe slowly.  Just think –

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and

_20150618_162311Only once.  But …

You can make the choice to feel young for as long as you live and be

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with each passing day.

Age is only a number, I tell myself.  What counts is how I feel inside, right?

 

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You have only one life to live.

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 it with all  your might!  

Brake for butterflies.

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Dance under the stars. 

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Hold hands.  Smile a lot.

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And always remember … you’re never too old to dream!

Signs

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I see a sign on the supermarket window –
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The wheels in my mind begin to spin. I imagine how wonderful it would be if our

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 could provide us with a     _20150601_153527solution to life’s challenges. 

For example –

how to get
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                                        or become a 
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           overnight!

I’d jump up and down and screech

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Wouldn’t you?

What a
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 this would be for  life in general!

 

We all know        _20150601_152038

right?

I’m going to make every effort to do just that!

You’ve heard this one –    _20150601_152318

Isn’t this a fabulous way to deal with the inevitable passage of time?

This digital moment was captured at the grocery store –

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If only life was that simple, right?  Then you wouldn’t have  those days when you want to throw up your hands and scream

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“Are you there, God?  Do you even care?”

I get tired of waiting, sometimes, don’t you?   You know … for that phone call, e-mail, text, knock at the door – whatever it takes – to deliver the 
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you’ve been pining, aching, yearning for.

But I
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to speed things up, to make it happen. There’s an appointed time for everything, you know.  It’s written in the stars.

So your mother always said
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But what if you feel you can’t wait one more day?  What if you just cannot keep believing?

I’m having one of those moments, when I walk into WalMart.  I cross the threshold and get confronted smack in the face by this –
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 The familiar thrill of exhilaration surges through me.  My heart begins to sing again. 

These sudden, unanticipated

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 unnerve and delight me.

So once more, I have to

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 I want to
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 I make up my mind (yet again) that I  will be as young as I believe I am.  I’ll never be too old

I can IMG_20150403_075441776 because I choose to
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So I will
_20150601_161550 Once again, I feel refreshed and I’m

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I choose to believe that
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 and I plan to
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Come journey with me.

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 Believe with me, because I believe. 

_20150515_195352 – really.  You know,

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 So

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